On this day 24 years ago, my Mum passed away. She had been sick for some time and I was only 6 when it happened.
For anyone else who has lost a family member, you’ll know how surreal the experience is. It can be traumatizing for some as everyone deals with death differently. I don’t remember much about it all. I joke saying that my brain has switched off and locked all those feelings and memories away. Don’t get me wrong, I still function like a normal human being (whatever that is) but I have very few memories of my childhood prior to this date. Most of my memories are sparked by photos, funnily enough and it is the reason I love photographs. It’s the reason I do what I do. The memories that they invoke are so strong for me and absolutely mean the world.
For such a sad day however, 12 years ago, I awoke on this day to different news. Something to rejoice! We had been trying for a baby for some time with not much luck, other than an ectopic pregnancy which of course had to be terminated but on the 24th May I did a little home pregnancy test…. And guess what. On this day that had meant the end of one life, the beginning of another was starting, yes those two lines appeared and I was pregnant. Not only that but days later I found out I was pregnant with twins!!! This was the best news ever.
Sometimes this day passes and I don’t even realize and other years I am acutely aware of what day it is, like this year as only a few days ago we said goodbye to our lovable family dog Sam. It’s been a hard week so no one was more surprised than me when a parcel arrived this morning with a beautiful box of preserved flowers and homemade chocolates arrived… I read the card with no name and knew straight away that it was hubby who had sent this. Having your husband work away is hard, especially in a week like this. But I will have a smile on my face today. Remembering happy times, remembering the blessing of my boys and knowing that I have amazing family and friends around me, near and far xx